Saturday, November 03, 2007
its been a long time since i update.
sometimes i guess its realli wad we call reality, life.
i guess sometimes we jus havto grow up.
lol
thought of the song in that grow adv again. haha.
bt...lala....
i guess im tired.
tired of telling myself everything's jus gona b ok.
jus go for it.
do ur best.
ha, n i always use tt to comfort other ppl.
n guess wad?
i cant comfort myself wif those words.
i know the reason
becos im tired.
tired......................................
tired of listening of how ppl in their own lifes who can achieve wad they want and den the consequences they achieved and complaining abt their social lifes about how badly they are treated and how they admire u, and tt u mus treasure wad u have cos i dun hav wad u do and wad other sentances like 'ahh, u gd lor i dun have the bravery like u do, im a coward~! ha....' when apparently she has the damn bloody bravery flowing in her blood..........................
lol the above was by a mixture of different ppl's speech.
maybe a compound.
ah, chem is over my dear......
hahahaha.
....
sianz.
why am i always like this.
emotional
overly emotional till an extent where i can just burst out everything and then be fine.....
n then inflate again.....n den deflate sumtimes....n den inflate again....n den omg.
BURST!!!!
BOOM!
pressure too much liao
cos area too small.
wahaha
physics is over......as well....
okok. still got mcq.... [lol self comfort]
ah
sianz
why..................................................
i noe why la...........
jus find it hard to accept my flaws and at the same time encouraging myself, tt sumtimes, if tts u, its u................n wad else?? erm, tts u, its unique...yay...
but nvm
i noe i'll control my emotions........
jus.....
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i wonder where, i wonder why,........[4gt the lyrics...] ....the blue blue sky....and all tt i can see its jus another lemon tree~~~~~~~~
LOL...
i guess................................................................
its jus in me.
i can encourage myself.
n i can discourage myself to an extent where i reali feel so...............
qian bian ar~~~~~~~~
n sometimes the fact tt i discourage myself.........is when someone whom i look up to, tells me certain sentances tt hurt my pride.
ya, maybe its a wake-up call.
ya, maybe its some..............alarm clock.
have enough liao.
STOP it.
stop thinking ure right
i knnow u have ur points
i have MINE too.
I CAN FIGHT BACK WITH SUPER DUPER AMOUNT OF POINTS CONSTRUCTED IN VERII NICE LANGUAGE FOR U, SOME GOOD ESSAY TT MAYBE CAN EVEN GT A1 IF I GT A CHANCE TO [if exams, u give me longer time to do my work i wun gt a1 la, bt i will gt better grades. LOL]
seriously
i dono.
im stubborn
my obstinatacy is at thick as a brick wall [at times]
yet....
sometimes i get easily swayed due to my emotions.
emotional.
tell me if its gd or bad.
HA
good is to a certain extent ba
bad is oso a certain extent.
lol.
this kind of answers.................................................................
markers for essays straight away give u low marks loh.............
cos there are better essays out there.
n markers will be WOW by those essays out there which when compared to an essay like that is..................................................
comparison.
comparative.
haix..
i reali hate ss leh...............
wth.
compare n contrast.
omg........
ss............
i wana die liao..............................
haha....
ss how much have i read...........................
dun wana tok abt it.
jus dun go in brain.
cos brain no space liao............
2much for sum 'salt trade by venetians. LOL'
ah
i think i better try to summarise my ss points awhile.
DOge
the verii old person....
ard 70 yrs old....
erm...
wadelse.
omg...
den de worked in various sectors before....so nominated to be Doge.
something like tt...............................
lol.
aiyo tts the only thing i can rmb frm tt pg..
the others is gona be a mess cos i here can summarise some, here summarise there.
i cheat....
i refer to notes. bt i will rephrase.
omg, i think i can study this way. let me try........bt try ar......
political factors:
exemplary political system
Made up of 5% of the population
They are highly educated, most wealthy.
Not dominated by few families. SO SADDDDDDD SO unfair............
LOL.
Doge
the verii old person....
ard 70 yrs old....
erm...
wad else.
omg...
den de worked in various sectors before....so nominated to be Doge.
something like tt...............................
experienced therefore chosen i suppose...
Ducal council
6 experienced nobles.
initiated policies and ensured that all other councils performed properly
Council of Forty: c0inaGe and finAnCes.
Senate: handlEd foreiGn mattErs and CommerCe
Great Council: consists of the noble families
elects all impt council officers
settles disputes, passes laws and grants.. pardons [forgiveness maybe in certain laws and stuff la dono...].
my brain is saturated wif emotions, and many more.
therefore i nidto siam away from it liao. if nt i wil go crazy.
=(
jus wana conclude.
i hate my san fen zhong re du.
its...........
reali.......reali......................
i wana cry tt kind of walau cheng du.
=(
do do do
change here change there
canot complain cos too late kana scolding.
den suppress in heart.
omg....lol.
aiya
sumtimes i exaggerate my feelings cos i too drama de
bt why m i drama?
hah...
cos its in my blood.
n........
when im dramatic i find i can block myself to be in a world of my own.
lol.
den laugh it off den ta-dah
back.
or maybe ppl thinks im back.
using hyperactiveness to cover.
its very unhealthy
well yea...
very sad.
=(
but...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
habit liao.
ever since the day i was born?
hm. no la.
actuali nt so bad.
i jus suppress to an extent, i burst
bt i always seemed to find ways, to jus becum ok liao. but i dono how long tt lies.
aiyo
verii headache
always think here think there.
i wan go read my literature la.
ss u go n die la.
i dun wana friend u...........
bt i noe u're always there to ARGH make me mad
jus like life bah
there are things where u jus hate
things where u jus like.
n u question u ponder
omg.
n no satisfactory answer cums to u.
ask ppl?
i dono
too much answers till u dono wad to do.
which one really really fits me?
no idea. lol.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i wana CRY LIAO
hahas........
k la gtg
My name is Louisa Bess and I am a child of God. I love God. I love eating pizza and pastas and playing with my mates.