Thursday, August 14, 2008
Im really really feeling bad.
=(
ive cried thrice this week.
cried once on tues regarding the test
cried twice today bcos of many many things.
it was a long day after all.
i just cant make myself stay positive and true to myself.
but i guess its just my mentality.
perhaps its due to reading into too much of being true to oneself.
in literature, lying to oneself, lying to others....so on....
i feel tt im lying to myself.
actually basically im jus trying to gain acceptance bah
i really wana be who i am and yet be accepted.
isit possible?
my childishness is not tolerated.
not to mention my annoying character.
i just have the ability to annoy ppl
according to A.D. smith mayb
LOL jus kidding.
he doesnt even know who i am.
and now here i am
im having an ID crisis
oh man
=((((
bcos time is gone, i cant help to feel guilty whenever time always passes.
what are friends i wonder
to be there with u only at the good times?
selfishness?
milking all goodness?
for fun?
for company?
what on earth are they for?
i shld stop EMOING n do my work.
bt anyway i feel better
i just felt messed up bcos of everything.
n promos are here in 38days or so...
bt i feel better after cooling down.
i too tired lately la. so i stress
den i dont really know if i shld b hopeful abt things ard me anot.
will i do well for my test this time round?
will i irritate my class again? wad will i do?
i wonder.
anyway i'd better gt going.
bt i really feel better.
bt the fear of going back to file my chinese file haunts me
lol
cos i couldnt find my WS
n i tot i arranged them nicely!!!!!!
GRR
bye...
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Im really really feeling bad.
=(
ive cried thrice this week.
cried once on tues regarding the test
cried twice today bcos of many many things.
it was a long day after all.
i just cant make myself stay positive and true to myself.
but i guess its just my mentality.
perhaps its due to reading into too much of being true to oneself.
in literature, lying to oneself, lying to others....so on....
i feel tt im lying to myself.
actually basically im jus trying to gain acceptance bah
i really wana be who i am and yet be accepted.
isit possible?
my childishness is not tolerated.
not to mention my annoying character.
i just have the ability to annoy ppl
according to A.D. smith mayb
LOL jus kidding.
he doesnt even know who i am.
and now here i am
im having an ID crisis
oh man
=((((
bcos time is gone, i cant help to feel guilty whenever time always passes.
what are friends i wonder
to be there with u only at the good times?
selfishness?
milking all goodness?
for fun?
for company?
what on earth are they for?
i shld stop EMOING n do my work.
bt anyway i feel better
i just felt messed up bcos of everything.
n promos are here in 38days or so...
bt i feel better after cooling down.
i too tired lately la. so i stress
den i dont really know if i shld b hopeful abt things ard me anot.
will i do well for my test this time round?
will i irritate my class again? wad will i do?
i wonder.
anyway i'd better gt going.
bt i really feel better.
bt the fear of going back to file my chinese file haunts me
lol
cos i couldnt find my WS
n i tot i arranged them nicely!!!!!!
GRR
bye...
so you wanna know more?
With soft gray eyes she gloomed and glowered;
With soft red lips she sang a song:
What knight might gaze upon her face,
Nor fare along?
For all her looks were full of spells,
And all her words, of sorcery;
And in some way they seemed to say,
"Oh, come with me! oh, come with me!
Oh, come with me, my love, Sir Kay!"--
How should he know the witch, I trow,
Morgan La Fey?
-- Cawein, Madison J. (1865-1914), "Morgan La Fey"
Oh, the things I put up just to make the scrollbar scroll (;
My name is Louisa Bess and I am a child of God. I love God. I love eating pizza and pastas and playing with my mates.