Monday, November 20, 2006
AH! ERROR!
the 5th tarot card reading is actuali de 4th card...sorii sorii...
i put the corrections here hoh...hehe lazi to edit =)
well i write the tarot cards readings again larhh
hahas
1. my feelings for the case: irritating love, sumthin i dun wana hav anything to do wif [true!]
2. the past: frm frens to lovers, helping each other, suppressed feelings revealed[true ba?]
3. the present: this card is the card everyone wana gt in the upright position...i got it bt i dun think its true la...it means in love...which is nt for my case. we nw oso hav nth to do wif each other lol...
4. the surroundings: others feel its nt gd...wan to snatch him away? lol dono bt it wrote heng dao duo ai...using unscruplous[sp] ways to get love...who cares...take him if u wan i dun wana care..do i? dono its jus irritating love...
5. this is the future: a new beginning
**
tts abt it
hahas now tok abt 2dae
played basketball alone
i scored in the first shot! COOL MAN!
great start for me =) hehes
4gt to do warm up
legs feel abit pain pain
den i kana stuck at the 4th pt again
LOL aiya dun care....tmr try mus try until can ahahs tmr cannot den too bad lor try tmr tmr haha
den after tt watched devil bside u
once again like always i luv like hell!!! HEHEHES
cant help it larhh aahhas
meng is sooooo non devil actuali
xiao yue is sooooo kind!
yuan yi as normal is so shuai hehes n gentle of cos =)
qing zi dated wif yuan yi thanks to the red umbrella! so ppl! buy red umbrellas nxt time ok? can help more couples like dem lol...n couples pls if u wana try hoh bet for red umbrellas =) those who watched wil noe wad crap i saying hahaha
qing zi is so someone i wana be
hahas so brave so straightforward...so daring...dare to love dare to hate...a veri shining character to me haha....
wells anythin to add? lets c....ehh hahas tmr mus contd watching! HEHEHEEE
ok now for personal feelings zone haha
noticed i changed my personal msg in msn? i deleted the link to my blog. cos i scared he kpo go read my blog...den..i jiu die liao......
my left eye kept twitching 2dae
i dun care if it means gd or bad
i jus noe its comiing in my way, be it so. i'll deal with it...even if its difficult...its definitely do-able bcos every problem in tis world is like a maths qns...it comes wif an answer...if theres no answer...it wun b a qns in the 1st place. it'll be difficult to seek the answer...bt it can be done.
HAHA wad crap m i typing? LOLLLL
y isit so difficult to 4gt him den?
y isit so irritating to like him?
y cant my feelings for him jus gt washed by rain?
haha shadows cant gt washed away....feelings as well...
ppl sae time can heal all wounds
mayb i nid a plaster...
i dun think time can heal this wound of mine.
i dun seem to stop cryin or gt sad when i jus think abt it
im afraid.
afraid tt history wil repeat itself.
wad if....he starts it again...? 22nd of da month is coming soon
wil he send sms again?
wad wil he tel me tis time?
im afraid.
bt im stil hoping
im still hoping tt he'll tel me he has feelings for me.
bt tts jus plain stupid
i even imagined wad wil happen if he told me tt...
use ur imagination now....ure entering poh jing jing's imaginary world...
**
there he was standing right infront of u...his eyes looking deep into urs.
there u are, looking bac at his eyes with anticipation yet fearful...
his mouth opened, his lips started to wriggle..wad is he goin to sae?
'i wan to tel u smth..pls dun gt shock...'
u looked at him, ur heartbeat increasing incessantly...
ur eyes told him to carry on.
'i stil like u'
no way, u think. its impossible, this is a joke!
'Realli...believe me...'he said.
nononono...
'dun sae anything ive gt loads to tel u 1st...'u said to him, although ur mind is in a whirlpool of chaos...u dun seem to noe wad ure doing...ur sense seems to feel numb...yet ur mouth moves telling him those words in ur heart...
'ok pls contd' he said.
'dun u noe how i feel b4? long long ago...after u brk wif her...u told me i was ur replacement...i felt so...numbed...bt i accepted u in the end. bcos i cant stop my feelings...even though i knew u couldnt feel for me so immediately...u were jus looking for a plaster to heal ur wound...' his eyes loooked guitly.
'bt i din mind...i dono why...bt i rejected at first bcos i noe u dun like me...bt ur persistent made me feel tt i mus accept u..so i did. i wanted u to wait. after o lvls were over bt it was no difference ..we were stil sweet-talkin to each other...n everythin...i cant believe we even went to pungol park secretly wif u...bt den u told me one dae u felt insecure. u said u dun wana drag me..u said u stil hav alot of feelings fer ur ex...n i told u mani things the hurt u gave me b4 abt ur feelings fer her....u told me b4 u stil like her alot abt the dream of u kissing her gttin married...bt i bore wif it i believed tt u couldnt 4gt her tt time..i was willing to b ur plaster tt time. i told u tt as long as ure happi i din care anymore..n u told me tt u wil wait for me until o lvls is over bcos ure reali sure tt my feelings for u are real...i was so hapi so elated so blissful..i pictured myself walking hand in hand wif u to mani places...bt all was crashed when u told me one dae...dat u din want to wait anymore. u said the same reason u din wana drag me down. u said i was too good. u said u couldn't let go the feelings for ur ex. u din wan the plaster anymore. i let u go. i gave u up, encouragin u to go for ur ex. n dat was the end of my dream. my dream wif u was shattered. u gave me hope, u ruin it..its jus like im a kid...a kid wanting to open x'mas presents jus when i was running towards the x'mas tree hoping to open my presents...someone grabbed all of them away...pushed me away nt lettin me to open them. looks like the presents were theirs...they weren't mine...tts was how i felt...den as daes go by...we contd as frens. bt there was a time i tot i let u go aredi becos i like someone else...bt i was jus idolizing him. i realized my heart was stil wif u. as for u? i rmbered i once asked u who u like after sometime from our so called breakup...u told me u din want to like anyone...u were unsure to cope wif a relationship tt time. n den...i heard frm my frens u had a gf. i was in the library shelving bks tt time...tears jus welled up my eyes. i felt so..................sad. i was surprised i din shed a tear in the library. bt when daes past..whenever i was listening to some songs. i couldnt help it anymore. my tears were obstinate they want to come out of my eyes so badly. so i let them. supressing them isnt good. for a few daes i cried every night. n after tt i always feel so much betta i gues tts wad tears r for. they wash away ur emotions....they hav a calming effect when freed frm our eyes...i nv expect my feelings for u to be so deep. actuali i dun hav to b so sad, bcos u liked me b4..bt sumthin tells me no. u dun. i was a plaster. is love for u a play-thing? it comes n go like a swing, swaying ard. or isit tt u mistake crushes fer the real thing? i hav no idea. i dun wan to noe. i jus wana tel u all these n gt on wif my life. if i had a special remote control wif me, n dat i can do anything wif it...the first thing i wan to do is to switch off my feelings for u. its tiring. its irritating. its....hurtful, tearful, dreadful, hateful. i dun wana hav anythin to do wif u. can i? i cant i dun noe why..i cant b greedy tears help me to free emotions frm me...i hope it can do one mor thing for me. can it let my feelings for u escape as well? i hope it can. perhaps u dun like me. perhaps ure. bt nw i dun think its possible for now tt i wil open my heart for u once again. even though tt time i rejected u as well & accept u in the end. this time its different my heart is going for a holidae. it wun open its door for now. perhaps its lost its key waiting for the right one to open it. if ure reali so fated wif me, perhaps one dae u'll find the key. wad can i sae? good luck.'
and there ur tears were flowing madly while u told all ur inner feelings to him.
he stood there silently with his head hung low, nt wanting to look into ur eyes. its gd we cant shut our ears like we can wif our eyes. u can hear even though u cant see wads infront of u. its gd tt u cant shut ur heart. u stil can feel wads ard u.
**
great imagination? im suprised i din cry. lol..think too much ler it wun happen liao. ha. bye
Monday, November 20, 2006
AH! ERROR!
the 5th tarot card reading is actuali de 4th card...sorii sorii...
i put the corrections here hoh...hehe lazi to edit =)
well i write the tarot cards readings again larhh
hahas
1. my feelings for the case: irritating love, sumthin i dun wana hav anything to do wif [true!]
2. the past: frm frens to lovers, helping each other, suppressed feelings revealed[true ba?]
3. the present: this card is the card everyone wana gt in the upright position...i got it bt i dun think its true la...it means in love...which is nt for my case. we nw oso hav nth to do wif each other lol...
4. the surroundings: others feel its nt gd...wan to snatch him away? lol dono bt it wrote heng dao duo ai...using unscruplous[sp] ways to get love...who cares...take him if u wan i dun wana care..do i? dono its jus irritating love...
5. this is the future: a new beginning
**
tts abt it
hahas now tok abt 2dae
played basketball alone
i scored in the first shot! COOL MAN!
great start for me =) hehes
4gt to do warm up
legs feel abit pain pain
den i kana stuck at the 4th pt again
LOL aiya dun care....tmr try mus try until can ahahs tmr cannot den too bad lor try tmr tmr haha
den after tt watched devil bside u
once again like always i luv like hell!!! HEHEHES
cant help it larhh aahhas
meng is sooooo non devil actuali
xiao yue is sooooo kind!
yuan yi as normal is so shuai hehes n gentle of cos =)
qing zi dated wif yuan yi thanks to the red umbrella! so ppl! buy red umbrellas nxt time ok? can help more couples like dem lol...n couples pls if u wana try hoh bet for red umbrellas =) those who watched wil noe wad crap i saying hahaha
qing zi is so someone i wana be
hahas so brave so straightforward...so daring...dare to love dare to hate...a veri shining character to me haha....
wells anythin to add? lets c....ehh hahas tmr mus contd watching! HEHEHEEE
ok now for personal feelings zone haha
noticed i changed my personal msg in msn? i deleted the link to my blog. cos i scared he kpo go read my blog...den..i jiu die liao......
my left eye kept twitching 2dae
i dun care if it means gd or bad
i jus noe its comiing in my way, be it so. i'll deal with it...even if its difficult...its definitely do-able bcos every problem in tis world is like a maths qns...it comes wif an answer...if theres no answer...it wun b a qns in the 1st place. it'll be difficult to seek the answer...bt it can be done.
HAHA wad crap m i typing? LOLLLL
y isit so difficult to 4gt him den?
y isit so irritating to like him?
y cant my feelings for him jus gt washed by rain?
haha shadows cant gt washed away....feelings as well...
ppl sae time can heal all wounds
mayb i nid a plaster...
i dun think time can heal this wound of mine.
i dun seem to stop cryin or gt sad when i jus think abt it
im afraid.
afraid tt history wil repeat itself.
wad if....he starts it again...? 22nd of da month is coming soon
wil he send sms again?
wad wil he tel me tis time?
im afraid.
bt im stil hoping
im still hoping tt he'll tel me he has feelings for me.
bt tts jus plain stupid
i even imagined wad wil happen if he told me tt...
use ur imagination now....ure entering poh jing jing's imaginary world...
**
there he was standing right infront of u...his eyes looking deep into urs.
there u are, looking bac at his eyes with anticipation yet fearful...
his mouth opened, his lips started to wriggle..wad is he goin to sae?
'i wan to tel u smth..pls dun gt shock...'
u looked at him, ur heartbeat increasing incessantly...
ur eyes told him to carry on.
'i stil like u'
no way, u think. its impossible, this is a joke!
'Realli...believe me...'he said.
nononono...
'dun sae anything ive gt loads to tel u 1st...'u said to him, although ur mind is in a whirlpool of chaos...u dun seem to noe wad ure doing...ur sense seems to feel numb...yet ur mouth moves telling him those words in ur heart...
'ok pls contd' he said.
'dun u noe how i feel b4? long long ago...after u brk wif her...u told me i was ur replacement...i felt so...numbed...bt i accepted u in the end. bcos i cant stop my feelings...even though i knew u couldnt feel for me so immediately...u were jus looking for a plaster to heal ur wound...' his eyes loooked guitly.
'bt i din mind...i dono why...bt i rejected at first bcos i noe u dun like me...bt ur persistent made me feel tt i mus accept u..so i did. i wanted u to wait. after o lvls were over bt it was no difference ..we were stil sweet-talkin to each other...n everythin...i cant believe we even went to pungol park secretly wif u...bt den u told me one dae u felt insecure. u said u dun wana drag me..u said u stil hav alot of feelings fer ur ex...n i told u mani things the hurt u gave me b4 abt ur feelings fer her....u told me b4 u stil like her alot abt the dream of u kissing her gttin married...bt i bore wif it i believed tt u couldnt 4gt her tt time..i was willing to b ur plaster tt time. i told u tt as long as ure happi i din care anymore..n u told me tt u wil wait for me until o lvls is over bcos ure reali sure tt my feelings for u are real...i was so hapi so elated so blissful..i pictured myself walking hand in hand wif u to mani places...bt all was crashed when u told me one dae...dat u din want to wait anymore. u said the same reason u din wana drag me down. u said i was too good. u said u couldn't let go the feelings for ur ex. u din wan the plaster anymore. i let u go. i gave u up, encouragin u to go for ur ex. n dat was the end of my dream. my dream wif u was shattered. u gave me hope, u ruin it..its jus like im a kid...a kid wanting to open x'mas presents jus when i was running towards the x'mas tree hoping to open my presents...someone grabbed all of them away...pushed me away nt lettin me to open them. looks like the presents were theirs...they weren't mine...tts was how i felt...den as daes go by...we contd as frens. bt there was a time i tot i let u go aredi becos i like someone else...bt i was jus idolizing him. i realized my heart was stil wif u. as for u? i rmbered i once asked u who u like after sometime from our so called breakup...u told me u din want to like anyone...u were unsure to cope wif a relationship tt time. n den...i heard frm my frens u had a gf. i was in the library shelving bks tt time...tears jus welled up my eyes. i felt so..................sad. i was surprised i din shed a tear in the library. bt when daes past..whenever i was listening to some songs. i couldnt help it anymore. my tears were obstinate they want to come out of my eyes so badly. so i let them. supressing them isnt good. for a few daes i cried every night. n after tt i always feel so much betta i gues tts wad tears r for. they wash away ur emotions....they hav a calming effect when freed frm our eyes...i nv expect my feelings for u to be so deep. actuali i dun hav to b so sad, bcos u liked me b4..bt sumthin tells me no. u dun. i was a plaster. is love for u a play-thing? it comes n go like a swing, swaying ard. or isit tt u mistake crushes fer the real thing? i hav no idea. i dun wan to noe. i jus wana tel u all these n gt on wif my life. if i had a special remote control wif me, n dat i can do anything wif it...the first thing i wan to do is to switch off my feelings for u. its tiring. its irritating. its....hurtful, tearful, dreadful, hateful. i dun wana hav anythin to do wif u. can i? i cant i dun noe why..i cant b greedy tears help me to free emotions frm me...i hope it can do one mor thing for me. can it let my feelings for u escape as well? i hope it can. perhaps u dun like me. perhaps ure. bt nw i dun think its possible for now tt i wil open my heart for u once again. even though tt time i rejected u as well & accept u in the end. this time its different my heart is going for a holidae. it wun open its door for now. perhaps its lost its key waiting for the right one to open it. if ure reali so fated wif me, perhaps one dae u'll find the key. wad can i sae? good luck.'
and there ur tears were flowing madly while u told all ur inner feelings to him.
he stood there silently with his head hung low, nt wanting to look into ur eyes. its gd we cant shut our ears like we can wif our eyes. u can hear even though u cant see wads infront of u. its gd tt u cant shut ur heart. u stil can feel wads ard u.
**
great imagination? im suprised i din cry. lol..think too much ler it wun happen liao. ha. bye
so you wanna know more?
With soft gray eyes she gloomed and glowered;
With soft red lips she sang a song:
What knight might gaze upon her face,
Nor fare along?
For all her looks were full of spells,
And all her words, of sorcery;
And in some way they seemed to say,
"Oh, come with me! oh, come with me!
Oh, come with me, my love, Sir Kay!"--
How should he know the witch, I trow,
Morgan La Fey?
-- Cawein, Madison J. (1865-1914), "Morgan La Fey"
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